"How do you have so much hate in that little body?!"

Not a fave.

Kind of a depressing rainy day, so maybe a bit of a depressing subject. Just throwing this out there, seeing where it goes.

Do you ever anticipate the worst and then find yourself unable to let go of that one nagging negative thought?  Have you ever said you hated something (or even someone)... At first, only to try out how it sounds on the tip of your tongue? Maybe to get a rise out of someone? A reaction? Maybe they did something or said something that offended you, maybe they were just at the wrong place at the wrong time, maybe it was just you in a rotten mood.  And it grows, and grows, and grows in your brain - and you can't help but say it over and over again and suddenly you actually hate it (or them) and can't seem to remember why it was so important in the first place?  

I think that we all have something to learn from our past.  And we all have things we need to let go from our past.

Life is all about smiles and cries.  We can't feel the good things, unless we feel the bad.  We can't feel alive, if we don't experience the ups and downs.  The extreme ups and downs.  Sometimes it's okay to just. let. things. be.  

When a fear creeps inside of you, don't let that turn into hate.  Not saying you have to love everyone and everything, but don't let anybody or anything negatively affect the way you feel.  

Watch your thoughts, for they become words. Watch your words, for they become actions. Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become character. Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

And you know, the outcome is never as bad as bad as you think it will be. Take it from the girl who spent 3 years afraid of and hating the very thing that happened in the end. Felt like the worst thing possible, ended up being the best!  

One last thought: "regret makes you old, and bitterness poisons the people around you."

Currently listening:  Always Love by Nada Surf.

Anyhow, enough of that!  Who can stay sad on a night when BOTH One Tree Hill AND the Hills is on! Seriously, with characters like skills and sleazy t?  Loves it!

x's & o's, 

Leslie